If Mom dies I need to simplify my life, sell this house, sell or rent part of Mom's house, and build the efficiency apartment in Mom's house. Money wouldn't be a make or break issue then. I realize that I must have some money to live on, but not nearly as much as now.
When I went to see Mom yesterday, she looked at me, but she looked at me as though she weren't seeing me, just staring. Even though I talked to her, she just kept staring at me without uttering a sound. It alarmed me, so, I went to the nurse's station to inquire about her condition, and when I returned to her bedside, she was asleep. I don't know what she saw when she stared at me speechlessly, but that look will haunt me. Her mind is gone, so, I will never know.
I feel absolutely exhausted today. I feel sore all over. I am so tired. It is like something has lived inside my body this last week and has returned it to me, totally spent. It is an effort to even write this page.
