Friday, April 27, 1984

I had to pay the city $10.00, and the animal shelter $30.00; $40.00 total to get my dogs out of the 'slammer'. Including the extra utilities, soap, etc. Tracy cost me every penny she paid me in rent, maybe more, and I haven't gotten the next phone bill yet.

I paid $30.00 on my phone bill and it's down to the $50.00 deposit. The cashier told me that I'd have to call Monday and explain or my phone service would be shut off for non-payment.

Cecil cleans my house, since I've been working six days a week. Tracy was always gone or asleep. Today he swept the leaves away from the back door, vacuumed, did the laundry and washed the dishes. He's always tinkering. It's comforting to know that someone is here who can take charge, and doesn't mind a little responsibility. Rob's job ended in the nearby state. He came over and we had a pleasant evening. A man I met called, but Rob was here and I cut the conversation short. I certainly would appreciate a nice dinner out, with some wine and conversation though. Oh well, it's not to be.

Tonight I feel empty again, not cared about and alone. I feel let-down, but I don't know why. I'm probably just missing the everyday contact with people I care deeply about.