I gave myself a manicure, since I will be going to a banquet in Nashville. I used the liquid brush-on type of nail product that lengthens your own nails and strengthens them too. They look gorgeous, if I do say so myself. I also gave myself a pedicure and trimmed the calluses on my feet and toes. I dyed my hair and eyebrows, and shaved my legs.
I polished my shoes that I'm taking with me, and decided what I'm going to wear on the long bus trip. I packed as much as I could of the things I won't be using before I leave. I'm getting ready quicker than I expected. I am ready to leave for Nashville tomorrow, even though I'm not leaving until Wednesday.
I have a pumpkin, cantaloupe and cucumber in plain view in my garden. I also have a zucchini and green beans that will be ready to be picked tomorrow.
I'm tired today, because of the window peeper. I didn't sleep very well, nor very long; I ended up napping for about four hours. I told my roommates about the window peeper incident, and both of them told me to wake them up if it happens again. I asked Greg to go outside to see how well anyone could see through my bedroom curtains, and he told me the window peeper had a good view. I have an idea who the window peeper might be, but I'll probably never know for sure. If it's who I think it is, I won't have an incident tonight, because I know that he must get up early tomorrow morning.
My ex-beau phoned and asked what kind of cigarettes I smoke now. I have been using coupons and had a hard time remembering what my regular brand was. He must have thought I was a dumb shit. Maybe it's senility! He says unless I get out from under this stress, I won't be alive in ten years. He told me I'll receive $70.00 in the mail tomorrow for the bus ticket to Nashville. He couldn't get an airline ticket through the company he works for, since this was a spur of the moment thing.
I don't have an adequate diet here, nor money to buy supplemental vitamins and minerals, let alone protein. I haven't been feeling very well lately and believe it's because I haven't be able to afford the nutrients I need. I've aged very fast lately. My new hair growth is so gray, I'm sure a lack of something , maybe selenium, is the reason. A person doesn't fall apart in a short amount of time unless there's an underlying factor, either illness or malnutrition. My teeth, the very same teeth I've spent conservatively $10,000.00 on, are dirty, and I don't have the money to have them cleaned. There isn't any dental aid for anyone over eighteen years old. My child's teeth, that I've spent thousands of dollars on also, braces, retainers, etc., are also in a total state of disrepair now. There has to be some way out of this welfare, unemployment trap. I once said that I was too old to be a hooker, but maybe I take it back. I admire my child for sticking with her husband, but food stamps and welfare would be available without a spouse. "I'm so tired; I'm so weary, pick me up and kiss me, Dearie". This island, that I've lived on for the last fifteen years is in a stage of drought, and the droughts are expected to last at least another sixteen years, and I can't survive on my island anymore. Unfortunately, I am still proud! Although my spirit has been broken through the years by a drought or siege, the next year always produced a harvest, enough for me to store some of the harvest, and enough to last through the next drought or siege, but not sixteen or more years worth.
